I bought a cheap fisheye recently lol
What's good y'all! Welcome back to my fancy schmancy blog. I wanted to check in with y'all because I've been in a good space the past month or so. Aside from the fact the holidays be beating my ass, I've just been having fun making music again. The past few days I've been listening to Andre's "flute" album and planning out my year and I can't remember a time I was this excited going into the new year. 2023 has been trial and error when it comes to "The Process". And when I say the process, I don't just mean the music process, but the life process as well.
Truly, I believe the most important aspect of artist development is the human element. I've got a ways to go before I reach the mental fortitude I want to reach, but where would I be if I cared about what others think of me? Let negative opinions weigh me down? Sacrificing things that made me comfortable was revealing to me. We're all sorta stuck in this program and it takes a lot of self awareness to realize how conditioned we are to do certain things.
My homie THRD put me onto this book Ego Is the Enemy by Ryan Holiday. He told me he didn't think I needed the book because I'm not an egotistical person, but I still wanted to give it a try. What I realized was the word ego was more multi-faceted than I thought. Everybody is prideful in certain areas, even to the point it hinders us in our careers. Reading the book opened my eyes to bad habits in my daily routine (I didn't even have a routine before last year) that I needed to fix to clear my mind.
This lack of patience and self-understanding reflected in the music I was making for a period of time this year. I had to take a step back to see that the music sounded forced. I was chasing a specific energy rather than letting it come to me. I like to feel music rather than hear it so I had to return to that state of mind. Meditation, exercise, getting sunlight, and reading were some of the things that helped bring me back to the present. Back on the right path to achieving MY perfect process. No process is perfect, but there's one for me out there and I'm just trying to find it. 2024 will be the year I put it all together, I believe.
Blessings,
GG 🌎
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